Confessional

I‘m not sure when I officially “started” dieting – but by 2009 I had lost a net total of 30lbs. And since then… I’ve managed to gain every one of those pounds back.

I can you tell you my laundry list of excuses: busy work schedule, difficult times with my husband’s job, selling our house, moving out of state, more difficult schedules, etc. etc. I have at least one excuse for every pound I lost and then gained back. But that doesn’t make them go away. What I’m left with is being completely disgusted with the way I look. Again. Overweight – I can see it in my face. I’m ashamed of the folds where there didn’t used to be folds. I’m out of shape. I hate it.

After a lot of false starts, I’m hoping this time it will stick. I’m back on myfooddiary.com, I’m taking Zumba classes two times a week (starting in the new year, I’ll bring that up to three). They’re not at the most convenient times – but I’m trying to make it work. I’m also trying to eat less meat overall – less chicken, beef, fish. I’m not trying to be a vegetarian, but I’m trying to keep our meat meals to just once a week and do vegetarian dishes the rest of the week. We’ve been reading a lot about how much a meat-focused diet is so bad for the environment.

Anyway – hoping that putting this out here, will maybe give me some accountability to stay on track.