Life Lesson I Learned from doing my presentation

The presentation I gave at WordCamp Utah went really well. It was the first time I've ever done anything like that. I prepped as much as humanly possible. I practiced as often as I could. I must have updated my slides several times every day for about a month leading up to the conference. AND I also had anxiety dreams almost every night especially the week before. In my nightmares, everything that could go wrong, did. I'd left my power cord at home. I left my laser pointer somewhere. I lost wifi connection and couldn't find my presentation. My nose began to bleed spontaneously. I mean literally everything my subconscious could do to undermine my confidence, it fed it into my nightmares. The irony is that I'm not here to tell you that "... and NONE of it came true... everything was fine!". Well, everything was fine, but that's not the end of the story. The truth is that almost everything I dreamed actually came true. I did accidentally leave my computer's power cord at home. I couldn't find my laser pointer when I needed it. The wifi did get disconnected from my laptop in the middle of my presentation. Really, if you told me that all of that stuff would really happen, I would have run from the room screaming, called up Joseph Scott and told him to forget it, I couldn't do it! In the nightmares, when all of these things happened, the world basically ended. My presentation was a complete failure and life ended there. Every night, in the middle of the night, I'd wake up, jot something down on a piece of paper I needed to remember so that I could prevent the catastrophe I had just envisioned. But despite all these things coming true, life did not end. In fact, nothing happened. Thankfully, my battery lasted long enough to survive the length of my presentation. It did die eventually, but not until about halfway through the day - hours later. The wifi timed out on my laptop and disconnected, but I kept going even though the cool slide remote I had on my iPhone no longer worked. (In my opinion: a design flaw in the app to have it only rely on wifi and not bluetooth!!) The arrow keys work perfectly well to move the slides!! And the laser pointer I realized later I left buried in my purse so I just made do without it. All the anxiety and thinking the sky would fall if any of these things happened, and even my desperate attempts to prevent them - they happened. When they did, there was a logical solution. And life went on. I think I know I spend too much time worrying about what could happen. I spend too much time trying to plan for all conceivable contingencies. And the truth of the matter is that, when a problem is real, there is usually a solution at hand as well. I won't say always. But usually. It certainly isn't worth the time spent worrying about the "what ifs."

Coolest Geek Toy (that my daughter is loving right now)

OSnap Circuits line. Basically they're these pieces that very easily snap together, and you build various electronic devices. A fan, (that also doubles as a flying saucer with the right set up), an alarm, a music box, a light switch, etc. etc. It makes building circuit boards as easily as playing with Lego's. They have a little booklet with easy to follow diagrams showing you how to build the various projects. There are symbols on the pieces that show you how it would look on a "grown up" diagram. As well, the booklet explains what is happening with what you're building - so it's teaching you as well. My daughter cruised through the first set she got for her birthday (something like 100 projects). So we ran out and got an add-on set that had 300. For a kid that normally has a fairly short attention span, she is playing with this toy way more than I expected. If you are looking for a really cool science type toy - this one is a great idea. The site says it's good for kids aged 8 and up - but it is simple enough I think kids a little bit younger than that could even do it. Click here to see the larger Snap Circuits SC-300 set on Amazon.com (you'll notice it has 5 stars and something like 469 reviews. I'm not the only one that thinks this is the coolest toy ever) 😉 Here's a video of her playing with one of her circuit projects:

Missing my puppy

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A Good Friend Gone

Late in the middle of the night, Charlie's (our dog) spine suddenly ruptured. Most likely from all the various ailments he's been dealing with, and the medication to help him. He was in terrible pain, more pain than I'd ever seen any animal in. I didn't want to see him suffer anymore and decided to put him down. I didn't want to stay to see the vet do it, but he's been faithfully by my side for the last 12+ years, I couldn't bear to let him die alone. I can't really get the picture out of my head of my dear friend dying before my eyes. I know he's at peace now, even though I am not. All this on the eve of my daughter's birthday. At first we weren't going to tell her, but I don't like deception so we told her in the early afternoon. She's definitely handling it better than I expected, (and certainly better than I am)

10 Years ago…

Happy Birthday Rachel! Then: and now: Seriously, 10 years?? Who put life on Fast Forward mode?

Summer is almost gone?

TMatt Mullenweg will be there. I'm really psyched about that. I feel like some things are coming full circle - A few years ago, Matt asked me to speak at a panel at SXSW and I turned it down. I feel kind of stupid having done that, but at the time, I was working for a company (not for myself, might have been more inclined to do it otherwise), as well, it meant having to travel there by plane and speak in front of people (obviously) - my two worst phobias: flying and public speaking - all rolled up into one. Anyway, I'm glad I was able to get over at least one of those fears in order to take this on.

Lola’s Alphabet Train – iPhone Game

WClick here if you'd like to see a video of the game. Lola's Alphabet Train: $1.99* Lola's Alphabet Train is also available for the iPad: Lola's Alphabet Train HD: $2.99* *price at time of this writing. Disclosure: I received a free copy of these apps for review purposes